Note To Self: "Don't worry, if it's suppose to happen, it will."

I keep writing about "Patience" and then I seem to get impatient with my words and this becomes a draft... But, no more! I shall write about it and give you some tips on how to not kill people and go to jail... Because no body wants that and I really don't like the outfits.

My story begins pretty simply. I never saw myself as an impatient person until I was in college. The stress of studying and balancing a well rounded social life was something that I had to get use to and rely on pretty quickly or I would see myself kicked out of a pretty awesome college. The stress made me impatient and irritable and I would probably say that's where my personality really shaped itself into what it is today. Granted, I've taken strides to improve myself and calm down my urges to scream at everyone, but impatience is still ingrained into the deepest threads of my personality.

So what I've learned to do (sometimes it doesn't work and you really just need to let someone have it) is these few things:

1. Deep breaths. I know for a fact that I've turned blue from anger and frustration all because the circulation in my body has stopped and my brain is just seeing red. Breath. Or count to ten. Whatever it is, you need to calm yourself down. I've had visions of breaking glass and throwing it at people many times as a bartender and I know these hopes and dreams can't come true, I just breath through my nose and put the biggest fake smile on. It's hard, but people are fragile and you can't slice through their conceptions of how to treat other people. They wont believe you or they'll get angry. And both parties angry just isn't a good combination. Breath. Iiiinhale... eeeexhale...

2. Do not follow through with your visions. Again, I have a pretty vivid imagination and can see myself doing a lot of things. Some I would need a pretty good lawyer. I just don't act on them and throw my tantrums in the back where no one can see me.

3. Find something that will calm you down. For me, it's solitaire games or puzzles on the internet. If I can trick my brain into thinking nothing is going on, my body cools down and the homicidal rage ebbs away. Maybe for you, it's doing yoga or going for a run. Whatever it is, you need to find some peace.

4. Realize that in a few days, weeks, months, years... this will all look pretty funny down the line. It might be overwhelming now but, in the future this is just a small bump in the many bumps to come in your life. Each one needs some patience and a reality check and you'll get through it.

It sucks always wanting things to happen RIGHT NOW. I want more money, RIGHT NOW. I want to go to Peru RIGHT NOW. I want to go home from work RIGHT NOW... but, if you don't stop to enjoy the trip TO the destination, sometimes the destination doesn't seem worth it. You've got to breathe, take a step back, adjust the way you're looking at the situation, and move on.